Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!
Thank you 2012 for everything that you have taught me!
Thank you Ex for letting me go when I wanted to hang on!
Thank you family and old friends for always being there for me!
Thank you new friends for making me believe in the beauty of new relationships.
Thank you work for the steady paycheck.
Thank you blog for giving me an outlet for my emotions and for introducing me to great people.
Thank you readers and fellow bloggers for reading my blog, for liking it, for commenting on it, for sending me heartfelt e-mails, for becoming my new friends!
It is impossible for me not to look back and reflect upon everything that has happened in 2012. My life is completely different from what it was in 2011. The only constant has been my job. I feel I have lost everything else.
Is my life better or worse? It depends at which moment you ask me. Life is composed of good and bad moments and I live each and all to the fullest. The bottom line is my life is exactly as it is supposed to be. 2011 was certainly the most heartbreaking year of my life. There were many challenges and I welcome challenges!
I feel I have accomplished and overcame a lot, specially emotionally. I could have accomplished more, but at the same time I could have curled up in a ball and fallen into a deep depression. I could have drowned my sorrows in pounds of chocolate and gained 30 pounds, I could have fallen for the wrong guy just because I feel lonely. Yet I have done none of those things. And for that and more I am grateful.
I have found peace, comfort and joy in accepting what the Universe has thrown at me. I accept and cherish the present moment. I am happy and grateful for each breath.
The main idea in 2011 was to keep mind and body busy. I keep active with Pilates, Yoga, Zumba, and volunteering ( I have been volunteering every Saturday and I am sore for days afterwards ). I try to keep my mind engaged with conversations with great friends, with movies, with puzzles, with new challenges. Still I hate to exercise, eat too much sugar and watch too much TV. I accept myself in all my glory and flaws. I just promise myself to try to be a little better today than I was yesterday.
In 2013 I am renewing my efforts to work harder at learning French and learning mosaic ( I found a 1 day mosaic workshop to be held in February and already signed up for it and I am able to invite someone to dinner in French – great starts)
I look at 2013 with a peaceful heart and so much hope! I know in my heart that it will be an amazing year. After all I am blessed with a Star on the Forehead (an invisible star)
In 2010 I had my fortune read by a monk sitting next to a temple in Thailand. Is that an acceptable thing in Buddhism? I have been always curious about that. But anyway, the point is, he told me that I was blessed (well no news there I knew that!! Lol), but he also told me that my life will only get better and better. Each new day will be better than the one before! Did he know what he was talking about? Did he have psychic abilities? Who knows and who cares! The important thing is that I believe it to be true, and the Universe believes what I believe.
The monk forgot to mention the hardships and growing pains along the way, but those are only details.
Today I can surely look back and say that my life is infinitely better and the most important thing is I feel I continue to move in the right direction and things can only get better.
So thank you reader and friend for being a part of my Universe, for making me question myself, for giving me support, for the kind words at the right time, for having inspiring, funny and informational blogs!
May your life get better and better and may 2013 be your year to shine!
ps. How dare I feel sorry for myself even for a second? On my way from the train station I stopped by a Brazilian restaurant, while waiting for a pastry to be fried, I noticed a man paying for a tiny piece of meat and sitting and eating that. The man looked disheveled and I thought he could have been mentally ill, but I decided to approach him anyway. I sat at his table and asked him if I could buy him lunch. He said yes. I was relieved that he acted normal.
I had so many emotions when I left the restaurant. I was happy with myself for lending a hand, but still the powerlessness consumes me. I feel guilty for having had moments today of feeling sorry for myself for not having a big New Year’s Eve planned. How dare I when some don’t know where their next meal is coming from?
I know I am meant to do more, to help more. ”To whom much is given, much is expected!” Luke 14:48